Glory in the flower.

What though the radiance which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendor in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.

I can forgive anyone for anything
except for the one closest to me, they’re always the hardest to forgive,
because even if what they did is minor, it always hurts the most 

This is what I get for not taking my meds for a week or two haha, every time I don’t I go into a depression spell, when will I leeeeeaaarnnnn

I actually just want to break up with you because I feel like shit for being the burden of your life, no one deserves that

I just want to throw my phone away, or lock it up, or turn it off for the night, but as smart as that would be I can’t bring myself to do it. So instead I’ll torture myself with the fact that you’re not replying or caring or understanding. weee

There such a clusterfuck of emotions running through me these days.
I’m still not over what you did, it fucking drives me nuts and it makes me feel guilty for being broken but I can’t change it
I hate that you can’t see the connection between these things and what my dad has done, I wish I knew how to let you in more to show you, but I don’t want you to see the pain and how broken he made me, because I felt I’d come so far from that place in my life, it’s the last thing I’d want you to see.

But the shit with my dad’s fucking me up so much I feel like I’m going to burst.
I don’t even know how I’ll maintain a functional marriage or long lasting relationship if I’m this fucked up. No one wants to be with this kind of girl, now matter how hard she tries to treat you the best it’s no comparison to the freedom and care-free fun a normal girl could give you. I always feel so guilty because I know if you want to be with me you’re going to miss out on so much in your life because I won’t be able to find a way to sleep with those actions at night, and that’s my fault. And now you can’t enjoy your youth all because I’m fucked up.